Feel So Alive

Music reaches me in a way that nothing else can.

Every year since I can remember, I've always had a theme song of the year. It always takes some thought, preparation, and a good idea of what I'll be doing during that year of my life to choose the perfect song.

To be perfectly honest, 22 was definitely the hardest birthday for me so far. Does anything exciting happen when you turn 22?! I think a lot of it was that it was hard to give up the theme song for last year, "21 and Invincible" by Something Corporate. I felt like it really fit! I spent my last few minutes of being 21 listening to that song. As I sat there enjoying many memories from that last year of my life, I began to worry! Have you ever really wondered where you will be in a year from now? What will you be doing? What's next?

The early 20's is such a crucial time for almost everybody. There is so much that changes. So many decisions to make. How do I know which ones are right for me? Am I where I'm supposed to be?

So much deep contemplation made my brain hurt and before I knew it, I was no longer 21 and invincible... So I went to sleep. Or tried to, anyway. The next day, which was my 22nd birthday, I was on my way to school and I plugged my iPod in. It was right where it left off from the night before and a new song started. And that is how I got my theme song for year #22. This years song is "Feel So Alive" by Ashely Parker Angel. Here are some peeks as to what 22 has been for me so far...

Red lights flashing,
I keep driving through,
31st of December,
Photographs I never took of you.
Yeah, I start to remember,
The broken moments that I might have thrown away,
I don't care, I'll be okay.

Got no way of knowing exactly where I'm going,

But I feel so alive.

Everything is changing,
life is rearranging,
But I feel so alive.
So alive.

A payphone calling,
it's so hard to forget,
Can you forgive me?
Know I'll never be what you expect,
I'm not sorry.
For every moment that I'm making a mistake,
I bend, but I won't break.

Got no way of knowing exactly where I'm going,
But I feel so alive.
Everything is changing,
life is rearranging,
But I feel so alive.
'Cause I feel so far,
I'm halfway there,
Just over the edge and I won't be scared.

Everything is changing, life is rearranging, But I feel so alive. So alive.

I
have
rediscovered
the
joy
of
family.

I have found incredible new friends.

I
have
witnessed
the
miracle
of
new
life.

I have been in the right place at the right time.
I know I've made the right decisions.
I made it out of anatomy alive.
I have loved.
I have lost.
I have let go.
I have lived and
I am happy.

My life hasn't turned out the way I always pictured it. I never thought I'd be here. Now. I never planned to be where I am at in this moment. But I've never felt more alive than I do right now.